Baby bliss..

I absolutely adore being a mom. I love all my kids with all my being. This birth and baby was even more special because the day he was born I was holding him tight and trying to figure out the signifigance Of the date...sept 08! When it hit me I just smiled and held him even tighter. Sept 08 was the day I lost the previous pregnancy two yrs earlier. I'm now celebrating this day instead of grieving.

My lil jojo had a rough start and even to this day I feel a lil robbed of the newborn time with him. He has MSPI and reflux and it all started right after birth. He has tracheomalsia which is a not yet mature trachea that causes a squeaking sound when breathing. It's really odd sounding and alerted me and the nurse his first night. One problem after another over the first six months kept me busy and also made him my top priority. As most moms do, I put my own health on the back burner and ignored some pretty serious symptoms.

By the time he was a year things were under control and I started realizing how bad I was feeling. Every visit from aunt flow was getting worse. I had heavy bleeding and painful ovulation. I started feeling dizzy throughout the month too. I even had off and on heart palpatations that I simply thought must be anxiety from all the stress the year had brought. Well the holidays were upon us and I thought I better go see my Dr just to make sure I was ok. I had some routine blood work done and sure enought 24 hrs later ring ring it's the dr calling for me to go in right away.

I was told I had extremely low blood count and my hemoglobin was at 7.1 and was having the heart side effects as warning that a stroke was coming. This floored me and I was so upset with myself, I have four kids that Need me and a husband I plan to be with for many moons. How did I let this get so bad. I quickly saw a hematologist and he recommended a series of infusions right away. So I spent the three wks before Christmas in the hospital,getting fixed up. Oh it was awful. The side effects from this stuff were ridiculous. I was in pain. I had a rash. And the migraine it caused lasted for nearly two weeks. I also ended up looking like an umpa loompa, the iron was rusty in color and now I was too!!I went to see my hemo dr for a follow up and he saw me and the reactions I had and he said I was no longer a Canadate for the infusions. I would now have only one option if my levels dropped again, a full blood transfusion. He also informed me that with heavy menstration I was doomed to be right back in that scenario in about three cycles. I was sad and felt lost. I scheduled a consult with my obgyn and we went over my options. He offered a uterine ablation or hysterectomy. I did some research and the ablation has a pretty low success rate. My hemo dr was adamant that the hysterectomy was the best option. After three appt with my obgyn and a call to the hemo they both decided it was best and surgery was scheduled...omg really???