Ten weeks after. Not so bad?

Well it's been the ten weeks and I feel a lot better!! The only complaints I have are the crazy mood swings and that my ovaries have been a bit wacky. I have a 6 cm cyst on the right ovary. We are watching it and praying it shrinks so I can avoid a surgery and possibly losing that ovary. I'm still not sleeping much but it is improving. Would I have done this if I had a choice? Hell no!! I personally think an elective hyster is just plain stupid. I had to make a life decision and its been a rough recovery. I am glad to be at this point for sure ! On a high note school is out and I am so looking forward to vacation with my Huney and just being lazy and eating tons of organic yummy summer fruit!!

Depression/ insomnia. Day 22

It's been a rough week. On the outside I'm looking better. The cuts are now healing and as long as I don't pick up my shirt and SHOW the mess you would not be able to tell, unless you happen to be walking behind a waddling lady (it might be me) I know sad right? I can't seem to walk normal yet. It all feels like stuff moving around and pulling in wrong directions. So the internal healing must be what the 8-10 week recovery period is referring to. I'm having moments of stir craziness but I am also respecting this recovery hoping to be well soon.

My biggest issue seems to be insomnia. I just can't sleep or stay asleep. I read about this on a hysterectomy support group and apparently it's a huge side effect. Right now my ovaries are sleeping fr the surgery. I'm hoping for that to soon pass because the hormones could be the culprit for no sleep. The cycle is just crazy. No sleep makes me feel icky, feeling icky makes me depressed. If I was still having my period I would have started yesterday. I still got the lingering migraine and lower backache but no period. Fun stuff! I don't know what I expected but I was obviously off track. I know I have to get past recovery to get feeling better. On the upside hopefully not having a period will help to regulate my blood levels and iron stores.

It's been 17 days!!!

I'm somewhere in what they call "the feel good week" well, I beg to differ. While the physical pain has eased up some and the visual wounds are now on the mend, my mind isn't. I find myself up way too late and having really bad nightmares. I'm able to do more but noticed it usually triggers pain or spotting. I decided to go see my surgeon this week because he wasn't available on my two week post op visit. I need to know what was taken out of me and just need some answers. Maybe that will put my mind to rest.

On the upside I did something today that I thought was going to be hard. Turns out it was BUT I DID it!!! I went to a baby shower. I knew it would stir up emotion so I prepared myself and prayed for comfort to get me through it. The sweet ladies at the shower made it easy. And to make myself feel better I went shopping afterwards for my kiddos. I have such a wonderful husband. He knew today was hard and he was so supportive.

This is my belly healing, sort of!

Post op day 12 /;

It's been getting better. I have now learned to listen to my body. If I get up and do too much I have pain and tenderness in my belly and lots of pressure in my "down there" area. I think it's just really hard for me to accept that u have to relax and take it easy. I'm used to being on the go and constantly tending to my house or cooking. It's depressing being home all day and not being able to do much. My hubby has been great. He really has been helping alot and caring for jojo almost all the time. He has been working while the baby sleeps and then running errands during nap time.

I am hoping my two week check will go ok. It's on Tuesday and I have to see one of the other drs at my obgyns office. My dr that did the surgery is now on vacation. I'm so scared of the vag exam. Ughh it's like after you have a baby you don't want noone poking around down there!!!

Post op day "10"

Well im up at 4am so it's gonna Be a long day for sure. I am hoping today will allow me to just breathe and get the simple things accomplished. Auntie lila is taking the kiddos to the
Movies so I will have time with just me and jojo!!i do cherish moments those me

and use them to engage his sweet mind in something interesting.

So here's to a wonderful weekend and a healing one too!!

SteriStrip Madness continues

So this is the aftermath of the allergic reaction.  A swollen belly and four clearly irritated incisions.  The doctor says there is no infection but I feel just yuk and they itch and burn like hell!!!  My belly button is the worse. 

This morning I woke up with really no relief so I popped some meds and put on the steroid cream and ehhh its just not helping.  I also have lots of pressure today, feels so odd.  when I move all my intestines kinda slosh around trying to find a new home.  Ok so maybe tomorrow will be better?

One week mark

Today is one week since the hysterectomy. I started feeling pretty depressed last night after a long night and not being able to sleep. I finally fell asleep after 1am and yea I didn't get out of bed till after 10. I tossed and turned most of the night but I eventually got good sleep fr 6am till 10 thanks to a Vicodin I gave in and took. I decided to tag along with the hubs to the grocery store and it felt good to walk but I got tired and we made it home pretty quick.

The rest of the day was pretty laid back and besides finally having a "I'm going number two" moment it wasn't half bad. I sat out front with the kids while they played and I even snapped a few cute pics of them.

I love this pic!!

These are some great kids!!

 I came in and I noticed my incisions are still SOOO itchy I decided to call the dr oncall. The nurse advised me I was most like having an allergy to the adhesive they use to secure the steri strips. She then said I needed to remove them. Omgeez are you serious? I decided to wait till morning and just go see the dr. Well I lasted till midnight and I was in a itchy and burning hell! So I ripped three off and it felt better. So I tried to sleep but it did not last long. I was up by 4 and just miserable. Eventually I went to see my dr. The nurse was taken back by the look of my tummy so she brought in the surgeon and he confirmed it is an allergy. Benedryl and cortisone cream for a few days is supposed to help. Right now I'm not convinced. It's driving me mad. I can barely sit still. Day 7 post op and I feel like crap!!